It's been awhile. Truth to be told, everything's completely... changed. And in these past couple of days, she've been nothing but slightly numb. If only a single word would describe of how she felt right that instance. The moment when the breeze of the night once blew into her face when the cracked of her windows weren't properly helping her think. She once sneaked out her room and went to search silence of her thoughts. She couldn't help but feel awaken, even in her dreams. It's all too real. It's elusive, it's infeasible. Days went like small pebbles, swishing on the surface of the lake. You can feel it touch you, yet you feel slightly as to nothing. She wished, oh how she wished she could sent it in words, describe it by heart, spoke it. She faked a smile. Her thoughts, never calmed her. Never once. "I still want to drown whenever you leave. Please teach me gently how to breathe."